A Work In Progress

The Gimp + Laptop pointing device = Undue frustration.



We'll see how far I get before I never touch it again.
Instead of a touchpad, I think I work better with a pen.

A pipe dream

I want to start over.

"Hi."

Week 25, 2006

Items of note:

• Did you really delete my posted comment? Seriously. [hidden]Since when were rape jokes off limits?[/hidden]
  
  
• OUENDAN!
  
  
• Vij's, although a tad pricey, gets a thumbs up. Samosa Garden on the other hand...
  
  
• OUENDAN!!
  
  
• Day one: Holy bat-cakes!
  Day four: Yawn... come on now, let's get this over with.
  
  
• OUENDAN!!!

Quotes:

• On flash photography...
  B: (Eww, what a bunch of fugly people.)
  
  
• On I know, I just can't stop doing it...
  b: "Do you know how many things you say that could hurt me?"
  
  
• On I know, I just can't stop doing it... part 2
  B: "Stop hitting on me."
  b: "No, YOU stop hitting on ME."
  B: "I can't."
  b: "I know."
  
  
• On what's your point?
  W: "Where'd you meet them? They look pretty young."
  
  
• On just because it keeps being said, that doesn't make it true...
  B: "I feel very little sexual attraction whatsoever between us."
  

Lessons learned:

• On backtracking a snowball effect...
  First step towards change is aknowledgement. First sign towards aknowledgement is sharing. First requirement for sharing is trusting.
  
  I trust you?
  
  I trust you. [hidden] freak, i'm such a chick :P [/hidden]
  
  
• On self awareness...
  Forget temples, texts, and teachers. All one really needs is a severly pissed off ex-'not-a-girlfriend'.
  
  
• On social interactions...
  Got five sides to me, something like a pentagon
  

Dream theory:
I had a dream last night. I was driving home, got in an accident, wound up in a coma. Two people came to visit me and I floated around outside my body, viewing the interaction.

They talked. They seemed to care. One held my hand and touched my face, even tearing up a little. The other looked sad, but wouldn't do more than stand just barely inside the hospital room, near the exit.

I thought, if they switched places, I would be able to wake up.

Dr Lovejoy prescribes the following:

1) Read the newstory.

2) Watch the video.

3) Feel a little bit better about the kind of people there are in the world.

--

And if you need a little push to actually click the links, here's an excerpt from the newstory to get you in the mood:

"Most kids making a wish through the Make-A-Wish Foundation of Idaho wish to go someplace, to meet someone or to have something special.

Aubrey's request - to "be" something - is the rarest kind of wish, said executive director Marcia Karakas. It's the first time in at least 10 years that a "be" wish has been received in the Idaho office..."

What did she want to be? Click the links above to find out.

Week 24, 2006

"When there's nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire"

--Vocal opening from 'Your ex-lover is dead' by Stars

Quit imagining hidden innuendo in my quotes and posts. [hidden] It's hidden text you should be looking for! And you unformatted text RSS people are cheating. Yeah, I'm looking at you, K! And you too, S! [/hidden]

Items of note:

• DS Lite lite baby (Seven grown men playing Nintendo... Awesome! We need an eigth!) [hidden] No. Just, no. No dual meaning or homoerotic innuendo was meant to be implied here. [/hidden]
  
• So I married an axe murderer. [hidden] More 'a suddenly claustrophobically creepy I-want-to-have-your-babies crazy chick' than 'an axe murderer'. And more' I escaped from' instead of 'I married'. Yes, I could have handled it better, but she also could have been less psychotic about it. [/hidden]
  
• Will I, won't I, will I? It's always all about me. [hidden] No, it's never about me. It's always about the other guy, isn't it? Sometimes I like being 'the other guy'. This isn't one of them [/hidden]
  

Quotes:

• On a shirt I must get:
  S: I'm just not that into you.
  
  
• On reading people like a book:
  B: No, you don't.
  N: No, I don't.
  
  
• On damn you, Brain Age!
  R: Five times four is.... nine!
  

Contemplations:

• If 'avoidance' is a theme in your aspirations, then you really don't have any aspirations... unless you're the type that says flying is really just falling and missing the ground.
  
  
• If at first you don't succeed, try, try again? Sure. But if you still don't succeed, maybe it's time to rethink either your approach or your measure of success.
  
  
• Are people afraid of rejection? Or are they afraid of acceptance because of the ensuing responsibility? [hidden] The answer I'm looking for, if you've been paying attention, is 'neither'. It shouldn't be about avoidance. [/hidden]

Week 23, 2006

Thought of the Week:

“Serendipity. Look for something, find something else, and realize that what you've found is more suited to your needs than what you thought you were looking for.”

-- Lawrence Block

What did I think I was looking for?

Items of note:

• Happy Birthday [various people]!
  
  
• Happy Kwanzaa... I mean, Convocation [various people]!
  
  
• I'm so happy for you, Bobo. We is all growed up now :D
  
  
• Sunday: Boyz II Men @ Plush was filled with nostalgic goodness.
  
  
• I think you're right [hidden]I don't trust it[/hidden]
  

Quotes:

• On short term relationships:
  B: "It's better to end and move on quickly than to drag something out that you know is not going to work"
  J: "Exactly."
  B: "That's the perspective that doesn't make us sound like the dogs we are, so that's what I tell people."
  
  
• On coming home early:
  B: "I had work, ladyfriend has an exam tomorrow"
  M: "The only exams i know of are high school finals. You dog, you!"
  B: "Dude, midterms."
  M: "Suuuuurrre"
  
  
• On charts and graphs that should finally make it clear:
  K: "That is why i'm all for monogamous love but polygamous relationships"
  C: "I think I just had a 'eureka' moment."
  
  
• On did they really just say that?
  b: "And they're like, 'Don't let her go! After she's done with you I want her!'"
  
  
• On what I really want, [hidden]I think... oh shit I don't really know.[/hidden]
  B: "I want us to be great friends."
  
  
• On so many levels of wrongness at stag parties:
  D: "So there were 3 piles of 'toys' to choose from..."

Animator VS Animation

Been a while since I linked something.

Awesome flash animation titled "Animator VS Animation". Check it out.

http://www.theintarweb.org/content/Fun%20Stuff/Animator%20Vs%20Animation.swf

Why don't I listen to my own preachings?

Don't you hate it when you say something to reject another's hypothesis, but on closer examination what you said actually supports them and makes their argument stronger?

What am I getting at? I'm trying to force new experiences into the mold of old ones. We are of our own mold. To try and force us into another is a fruitless endeavour. I'm sorry I keep trying to do this.

Those who don't learn from the past are doomed to repeat it? But what if you want to repeat the past? Where's the implied problem there?

I shouldn't need to spell it out for you, but I will still outline it:

• The variables are never all the same,
  
• Unique opportunites are not leveraged,
  
• Lack of growth

Quotes make people (me) sound smart.

"The most important revelation about the past stems from the realization that it is not important to try and get rid of it, but to realize that we are already, by definition, rid of it. We need not be convinced of the importance of living in the present, but instead realize that we inevitably live in the present, and the only thing to id is to face it. ... Whether we like it or not, we cannot escape the present. The only reality is now."

--George Lawrence-Ell (The Invisible Clock)

Completely off topic

Limits suck when they are there to restrict and confine you.

Limits are good when they provide focus and structure.

The limit this year is 10.

[counting on my fingers]

Oh wait... I mean 11.

I won't be your crutch.

Crutches come in pairs; there's only one of me.

Upon closer inspection

Ever listen to a song thinking it's about one subject, only to find out upon closer inspection that it's the complete opposite of what you thought?

Enter: Nothing Better by The Postal Service.

I thought it was a lovey-dovey song.

(Male part:)
"Tell me am I right,
To think that there could be nothing better,
Than making you my bride,
And slowly growing old together."

It's actually a breakup song.

(Female part:)
"Don't you feed me lines
About some idealistic future.
Your heart won't heal right
If you keep tearing out the sutures."

Later in the song:

(Male part:)
"I know that I've made mistakes.
And, I swear I'll never wrong you again."

(Girl part:)
You've got a lure I can't deny
But you've had your chance, So say goodbye.
Say goodbye.

When I realized this, I had the largest grin on my face. I don't know why.
I think I was laughing.

Yeah, I'm a bastard. I know.

Oh the things you discover when stuck in traffic on a Friday morning.

On another note, if you're so inclined, get the Styrofoam remix of Nothing Better off the We Will Become Silhouettes album. Ooh, and the Iron and Wine cover of Such Great Heights is coolio acoustic version of a great Postal Service song as well.